is it some kind of neurodivergent to focus on like, "sensory symmetry" (e.g. rubbing each eye equally or else i feel an imbalance, or if i mess up flossing a tooth somehow ill feel inclined to mess up in the same way on the other side) and if so what flavor
oh also touching something gross makes me feel like i cant use that hand for literally anything else until i forget that it happened, even if i wash and scrub it vigorously. its like a pain almost
